so much of the problems anakin has with the jedi come from the fact that he doesn’t feel things quietly. he loves with all of himself, he hates with all of himself, his joy and his sorrow and his rage are all all-consuming. he’s got the potential for unlimited compassion, but also for unlimited rage. s’why dooku says he has a “gift of fury”
i think that might be part of what makes his relationship with padme so incredible but it also makes it rlly unhealthy because he’s a possessive asshole and she keeps all of her feelings in moderation.
this thing is also the reason why the death of qui-gon jinn is so absolutely pivotal to the fall of anakin skywalker.
because qui-gon found a way to be at piece with feeling things, with living in the moment. he called it the “living force,” which is different from the unifying force in that the unifying force places focus externally, on the future and other people and self-abnegation, the living force focuses sort of more immediately. like, if we were to compare these conceptions of the force to lenses, the living force has a shorter over-all focal length but it allows for tighter close-ups and getting into smaller, more confined spaces.
qui-gon, as a practicioner of the living force, mastered how to focus on singular people and the immediate moment in a way that i don’t think obi-wan ever quite mastered or even could have explained, and that’s not a detriment to obi-wan at all — obi-wan is much more suited to being the connector, the person sort of helping a living-force practitioner to the larger unifying force focal length.
but anakin doesn’t know how to deal with being naturally inclined to immediacy and detail-focus, and everyone else is trying to push him to look at things from a unifying-force perspective, and he’s just not inclined that way and we get all this bullshit about the sith and passion being bad and whatnot out of that.
idk i have a lot of feelings about qui-gon jinn.